I turn the thoughts and prayers of journals written decades ago into these poems and hope with more attention and accommodation I do not wander off into the despair always waiting at the end of the previous evening's talk. The piece of learning I always hope for comes from the awareness that toes will always be stepped on even in the midst of the dance where everyone knows the next turn is to the middle. I am reminded of the paradox of fire where bringing life whirls in the midst of the turning of what is alive to hopeful ashes.