I keep "Minute" perpetually on my shopping list, hoping to find one on the grocery shelf tucked between the dried blueberries and granola. And then to find another and another and another. A strange way to seek immortality - no less bizarre than traipsing off through a jungle in search of some mythical fountain of life where a sip of bubbling water promises an additional breath for each breath drawn. To live another day - to experience one more hurricane, more casualties of war, a sunrise and another summer of the buzz of cicadas - with permission from life to get out of bed and to be a beginner again. Is one experience of body-surfing a wave into the beach not enough? The taste of banana taffy again? To hold the hand of my beloved? Or do I search for more time afraid that, like birth, death will only happen once?
Category Archives: Poetry
My poetry. Mostly Collects
Scratches
Scratches in the wood floor hold memories of rushing to the door hoping to greet the promised wishes of tomorrow. And the goldfinch hangs upside down on the head of the sunflower inquiring of the loose, black seeds, Will you feed me? And the man, perhaps in a long coat, walks into his shadow as the sun surges upwards over the slope of his shoulder. And a woman bows her head over her book, not saying a prayer, but moving her lips soundlessly, speaking to one not there. And above, the blades of a fan spin, pulling the hot, human air towards the ceiling of heaven where angels wait. And all will be well, we are told, when the yearn of one moment meets the longing absent in the expectation of the next.
A Love Letter
I said, "I have decided to give my life the title 'Extreme Experiments.'" She said, "Funny, I don't consider myself extreme or experimental." I said, "But you have given me the possibility to recognize a grander perspective." She smiled. "Two people. Peculiar lives. Some shared space and time spent in each other's arms makes all the difference." I smiled, too. "I had no idea this conversation was going to turn into a love letter." She said, "As one brilliant mind wrote, 'We complex people cannot retreat to blockish simplicities.'"
“But if each life is not new, each single life, then why are we born?” – Ursula K. Le Guin
to experience as the leaves fall and rest upon the frosted ground remembering how they unfolded just months before in the springtime air how the child crossed the street not returning never to be seen again having disappeared into their own drawing of a storm of hope on a winter day where life is an extreme experiment in truth and the possibility of grander vistas lures the eyes down the block and around the corner into adventure
Today’s Wish List
To find the perfect book To understand birdsong To find intention to be For hot water in the bathtub to stay hot while I soak For muscles in my back to never knot For both sides to arrive and be surprised To wait, always wait, in peace To feel enough discomfort to yearn To understand the fine print
Jesus said, “I am.” – Mark 14:62
I AM who I AM, known by what has been and by the moments of here and now and by the dreams of what can be, may the multitude of I AMs we cry join together into a chorus of WE ARE; for once again our pronoun usage focuses more on the me in ourselves and threatens to unravel the careful stitching of our ancestors through time which brought us together intersecting our pasts, our presents and our futures. Amen.
Fun With Tense
Won't it be fun? Isn't it fun? Wasn't it fun? How much fun was it? How much fun is it? How much fun will it be?
A found note taped in my journal dated 04/12/2004 to 06/12/2004
To dad I really Love you. xoxoxoxoxo xoxoxo. I think you are the best dad for me. I hope you had fun at Chicago. and thank you for getting this note book for me & cori. I like it very much. Love your Baby Sydney
Return From Vacation
I breathe the truth in the dust that lingers in the air from years of patient longing. A daughter asks me to carry her raising her arms as she turns to me saying, Uppy. The ordinary resumes after a vacation trip that took us to the edge of delight, playing in the waters of life. Unpacked, we ride our bikes to the fountain where the girls walk circles counting bricks and the cascades spray mist upon us. The simple pleasures adorn themselves still finding refuge from the complex which waits patiently for the following day. Earlier, the flight path of our return took us over where we now stand and we looked down upon the roof of our house and the woods and this tiny circle of water which now becomes our daily destination.
A Summer Afternoon
Fascinating images from long ago glitter in the grass. A daughter runs through a sprinkler across the wet lawn. Another turns the page while sitting on the driveway reading. Still another calls for me to give her a push on the swing. I ignore the silent roaring of time feeling my very bones become old. The neighbor makes himself known with a call and a wave. A dead man out of mind, a forgotten ancestor, rises to play. Buckets and toy shovels wait in the sandbox where some grass grows. The soundlessness cannot last all the bright day long, can it? I look around for my hiding place we built the previous winter in the snow. All I see is the length of reflected light stretching toward my eyes. In the water the nightscapes dance as a promise after the sun goes down.