"But smaller bundles - Cram" - Emily Dickinson I said, "On the way to loosening up, stumbling blocks appear at random encountering my understanding." She asked, "Do you want your days to be as easy as a bird of prey riding the air, upheld by nothing?" I answered, "I am looking for a way to share my joy of living so others may recognize what makes me smile." She said, "In this time, the difference between recognition and figuring out what matters lasts only as long as the time it takes for a tear to slide down a cheek." I asked, "Tell me, did yesterday's peculiar ending shape the melancholic words you speak today?" She answered, "Halfway endings and unfinished finales and hazy outcomes always, in the words of the poet, 'Cram.'"
Category Archives: Poetry
My poetry. Mostly Collects
Stirred
stirring leaves of this morning return me to yesterday morning's memories
Waiting for G*d
"It is desire that saves." - Simone Weil We wait for g*d outside of us, playing some strange game of hide-and-seek, giving a destination to which we will never arrive despite our active searching and seeking, leading us astray to chance upon discovering what is most holy in our lives.
A Magic Beanstalk
Imagine a magic beyond the beanstalk, God bouncing between a burning bush - Can God bounce let alone burn in a bush? - at the periphery of vision and to a place, a place of vision ending at the edge surrounding a fire shut up in the bones. Throw me a bone fired from the hip and I will show you a hole the size of... Well, a hole the size of Rhode Island where you can drive an elephant through, through and throw confetti while driving, falling into open hands grasping, failing. All hands fall at the end failing to grasp the magic beanstalk beyond imagination.
“When you come into the land that the LORD your God is giving you…” – Deuteronomy 18:9
Giver of Life and Land, Who demands our obedience Against the evil ways of destruction Of the prior inhabitants, we wonder If the land and what we own Is really ours, or perhaps our very Thinking that it is becomes the Path to our own destruction And folly which you warned us Against. Make us mindful and Aware so as to give. Amen.
Deliver Us
We live with the mediocre in our lives, afraid of being killed or of being left behind, unable to define the far off poles between which the conventional stands in the middle. We ask for no great shakes, determined to seek the easiness we believe was promised to us long ago by those who walked long distances with a practiced pace and on calloused feet. Salvation should, the story begins, be easy, with no hindrance in our seeking for definitions of the God who seeks and waits as we actively search for the desire that will deliver us.
Starting Point
The place where I started can be found among chewed pencil stubs marking the moment between moments marked by pencil scribbles noting the time when boring entered my lexicon. I first said boring the time when I was born, apologetically to my mother as she screamed. I have since apologized to my mother for all the times when I made her cry. Secular folks are not the only ones to cry, begging for a sign that reads, Smile, Sinner. There are signs smiling all across this Land around which we circle seeking our home. Sometimes going around in circles I never find the place where I started.
Out Beyond
A chasm with no bottom A cage with invisible bars A blank billboard A mediocre commercial Two pairs of proofs One gut feeling Concrete sidewalks Cindered paths Christ's prayer God's decree A day's evening A night's morning Rilke Clifton To be Not to be
Readings
I said, "The one hundred pages due yesterday are now, finally, done." She said, "And here I was enjoying a quiet morning with no numbers." I said, "You quip while I try to enter the deep satisfaction of being caught up." She replied, "Looking upon the bronze serpent lifted up for all to see always saves the least of these." I said, "Don't be getting all biblical on me in my moment of small satisfaction." She said, "I just finished my reading of Simone Weil who wrote, 'the solution to a balance between the individual and the collective is precisely what people are thirsting for today.'"
Sacred Salt
"Sacred salt sparkles on our bodies." - Denise Levertov Not the salt found in blood, semen, tears or mucus, dried from wounds or sickness or deprivation but the salt that Jesus asks us to be, Be the salt of the earth. To be sprinkled and spread, lightly, ocean spray settling on barren and untouched skin, to sparkle on bodies who cry out to be flavored with delights and to be tasted while shouting joy to the heavens acclaiming, I am alive!